To preface this post, I didn't make it into drama club. Yeah, I know it sucks. Why, you may ask, am I broadcasting my failures on the Internet? Because of my admiration for all of you wonderful readers who crave to know every last detail of my drastically dull life.
Disappointment has always been a hard thing for me to grasp. I'm a relatively smart guy, and I succeed in a couple key areas that I also happen to enjoy, so most of the time, I am not disappointed. I also have incredibly low standards for myself, just in case I fail.
But, every once in a while, I get up on my high horse and make an assumption about something. And 99 times out of 100, it comes back to bite me in the arse.
That's the funny thing about making these kinds of assumptions. You spend hours dreaming about reaching these incredible heights, doing these incredible things, and a single variable change can send you off course so damn fast that you don't even know it's changed.
To be fair, I'm not all that upset about Drama Club. I knew it was an exclusive thing when I started, but I chose to be an egotist and think that I had to get in. I didn't cry or anything, but I was severely bummed.
The biggest problem with disappointment is that you rarely learn anything from it, or at least I don't. You can't stop trying things, as that is actually impossible, and the expectations thing isn't something you can control. From my perspective, it is either a dangerously low self-esteem or a high expectation that is just begging to fall.
I know this post isn't as beautifully poetic as Let Go ( Disappointed? Good!), but I'm tired and sad.
A final thought: The worse thing about this kind of situation is the pity. It's kind of hard to be sad for your friend who didn't make it when you did. You can't be happy around this kind of person, for fear of seeming insensitive.
You know what? I think being around someone happy is exactly the right medicine.
Thanks for reading and considering,
J. Valett
I must say that I differ with you on practically every single point brought up in the article, ranging from the low expectations to the not learning anything. However there are two important things I agree with you on, that you become a hassle to someone who's happy, and that the best medicine is being with someone happy.
ReplyDeleteYet I would also add that another good medicine is to write about all that in a blog ;).
awww!, I didn't know you felt like that. disappointment does actually suck, (trust me we both know). however I disagree with the not learning anything from it. in my case I take what I did wrong and improve, and then go from there. still, reading this actually made me question a few things about myself even. yet I do completely agree with the being with someone happy thing, it really does work.
ReplyDelete-"you don't make the decisions, your heart does" (thank you for that by the way)